Dream: Menacing Fog & Crowley 9 of Disks

Last night, Aleister Crowley entered my dreams.

Well, not the man himself I am happy to report. I’m not sure I would trust old Uncle Al popping into my dream life; he wasn’t really known as a “Do Gooder” you see.

Last week I began daily meditations on the images found in Crowley’s Thoth Tarot Deck. Without going into a huge diatribe on the purpose and uses of the Tarot Deck outside of historical Divinitory purposes, I understand the Tarot Deck to be a tool to tap into the various aspects of the human subconscious mind and affect changes and augmentation to one’s personality.

The card I have been meditating on is the “9 of Disks” also known as the “Gain” card.

Anyway, this morning I woke up around 7:30am. Sibby (Our 4 legged baby) was getting hot laying next to us and while repositioning herself to better expose her tummy to the fan we have by the bed, kicked me in the ribs several good ones. Once I wake up, regardless of the time, I feel compelled to get up. So I did.

I stumbled my way to my office downstairs and plopped on a mat I have on the floor. I put on some music with the intent of doing some light meditation.

I went back to sleep…

Suddenly, I was in a hotel lobby looking out of these large glass doors towards what I knew was supposed to be a beach; except instead of a beach there was a thick, rolling wall of fog coming in. If you have ever seen the movie “The Fog” then you know what I am talking about.

Anyway, at that instance I also realized I had my friends standing next to me; all girls. Three on one side, three on the other with me in the middle.

Eagle-eyed readers with undoubtedly pick up on the numerical symbol here, six females and me as the seventh figure, being male – in the center.

We were all standing in this hotel lobby, becoming frightened by this wall of fog that seemed to have a life of it’s own. It was rolling, swirling and looked to be building in strength.

At this point in the dream, I -almost- became lucid (realizing I was dreaming, while dreaming, but not waking up). I came so close to becoming lucid but couldn’t quite make the full shift. What did happen was, while standing in this hotel lobby, I got the same feeling one gets when trying to remember a name and having it “on the tip of the tongue”…that feeling of a…l…m…o….s….t having it. I knew something was weird with this setting and I actually said to myself “I wonder if I am dreaming this?”.

Suddenly, the image of the Crowley “9 of Disks” Tarot went through my mind, well in my dream mind, and for some reason still unknown to me…I knew, I KNEW that fog bank was my creation; that I was creating it.

I pushed the hotel lobby doors open and walked straight into and through the fog. No majestic “You Shall Not Pass” speech ala Lord of the Rings, no clash of thunder and bolts of  lightning. Just an intently walk straight into and through the fog.

On the other side, was the beach. The Sun was shining, families were picnicking, lovers were cuddled up…a beautiful scene.

Soon, my friends followed me and we made a human spread on the beach as if nothing had happened.

The moment my dream self laid down on the beach, I woke up in the exact same position on my mat, in my office.

Except something was not quite normal.

My physical body was vibrating with a delicious energy and I was not fully awake. You know that state in between sleep and being awake, where you feel as if your body is made of something lighter than air and you are so comfortable and relaxed that you wish it would last forever? Also, during these times…you drift in and out of dreams. You might have a quick snatch of a dream, them realize you are safely in your bed, then another quick dream etc.

That’s where I was…in the “between” state. Only my physical body felt as if I were plugged into a low current vibration of some sort. It was quite pleasant. During this time, I could see the “9 of Disks” card in my mind so clearly, as if I were holding it up in front of my eyes.

I could also tell something had shifted in my mind. I can’t put my finger on it, but something has been rearranged. I feel, clearer some how…I feel aware on a deeper level.

I wonder if……